To defy the odds is persevere whenever a failure is seemingly the most likely outcome. To succeed when others predict failure. To overcome obstacles and unpredicted changes and still come out on top.

Whenever I set out to move to Colorado in August of 2015, I had a lofty and lengthy list of goals and ambitions I was looking to conquer, and the odds were seemingly stacked against me. From selling most of everything I owned to make the cross country move where I didn’t know a single person and then to get to work to accomplish those goals – it all seemed overwhelming and was terrifying at times but I knew if I just put in the work and the focus I would achieve what I set out to do.

Imagine this – Imagine that you’re able to look and expand across multiple different time lines and see multiple different lives of yourself in the future. Each of them different based on different life decisions you’ve made. Maybe you’re a world champion fighter, or a school teacher, or maybe you live insolation as a practicing monk. Perhaps you’re broken and depressed, maybe you have no friends or family left because you’ve abused them. Any of these are possible because were imagining about the infinite different possibilities of the outcome of life. The limits of what could happen are literally infinite.

On this journey of life too many of us are chasing happiness through perfection

And yet so many forget that the idea of perfection is purely deception

Our true happiness will be found as soon as we understand that it’s all in our perception

Take a moment and let that sink in

The perfect life is a deception

Our happiness is a 100% perception

Monday: for many of us this day brings a feeling of angst. We fear beginning the week anew because we are so focused on the weekend and wanting to have fun with friends and loved ones and course a little rest and relaxation. This is perhaps one of the biggest downfalls of modern society – the Monday dread. Going to bed Sunday night anxious and already predicting how terrible Monday is GOING to be

The only thing on the mind of a shark is eat. That’s what it all comes down to.

If you want it, you have to be hungry.

How bad do you want it?

You have to want it so bad that you allow it to consume you.

You must be ready to battle the mind – and win.

Goals are what I’m referring to.

Find your passion, the thing that makes you tick, and then pursue it with relentless determination.

You have to be willing to have early mornings and late nights. You must be prepared to have a small network of friends and a minimal social life.

You must be willing to sacrifice what you want now for what you want in the long term.

Ludwig Martial Arts is probably the best thing to ever happen to me. Training Bang Muay Thai has completely changed my life. This of course is because of Sensei Ludwig being a legitimate martial artist that embraces the lifestyle and wants to teach and share the way. It really is a place of family and belonging. A reason to be better. To hold yourself to a higher standard. A place of love.

Vulnerability is a crazy thing. That moment when you realize that you could suddenly be emotionally victim to something. No matter how minor or major – just knowing that you could be let down, hurt, or disappointed. We choose to allow that to happen.

Callused, broken, and bruised.

Jaded and abused.

Let someone in again?

Fuck that, I refuse.

What do I have to lose? Finding my muse?

I think I’ll take the bet, because I’ll never forget.

Miyamoto Musashi speaks about every day being a challenge and an opportunity to grow. He speaks of slowly becoming better in all areas of life – especially areas of weakness.

For today to be a victory over your former self.

Today was one of those days.

Today was challenging

You don’t always have to be in a gym to push yourself to new limits – either physically or mentally.

Today I won a mental warfare inside my head.

Today I won a physical challenge that my body pleaded me to stop.

Today was a victory.

Her presence calms any soul that is near

And her laughter lightens the darkest of moods

Her eyes shine bright

Like the moon on a clear night

Where has the time gone?

It’s all come and gone so fast.

So fast.

The time, the time – Where is the time?

It’s January 22nd, 2016 and my life is completely different.

In 5 months, everything I once knew vanished and everything I’ve been working towards has suddenly become so bright.

Life is beautiful.

Hey everyone, for whatever reason GoPro Studio software is not running on my computer – I think the recent update either has a bug or my computer can no longer meet the demand. Anyhow, since I will not be able to do current Vlog updates I’m going to write this instead!

This is all too real and I love everything about it.

The adventure that you always dream about – it’s real and it’s inside of you.

Just close your eyes, breathe, and take that step forward.

Prepare to dare.

To wonder.

The dream, the dream.

What is the dream?

Day in and day out.

Consciousness fades in and consciousness fades out.

Sometimes this game of life is wicked.

Sometimes this game of life is bliss.

It’s a weird place where I sit.

How many “I love yous” have been lost.

How many “I’m sorrys” have been blown away by the wind?

How many suns and moons must we watch?

How does one handle this cold emptiness inside?

There are so many things I wish I would’ve said that I didn’t and many more I wish I didn’t say.

Hello again.

I know it’s been awhile since we last saw each other.

It’s March 27th and its 12:02 am. It’s really fascinating how the universe will speak to you – if you just pay attention. On my way home tonight, I suddenly had this urge to write. I needed to sit down and do exactly what I’m doing in this very moment. Smoking a bowl, sipping on a white Russian (with almond milk because I’m a health nut – yes I know alcohol is a poison) and jamming out to Jimi Hendrix.

2012

It has been a a year as tough as nails
The hardest year I’ve had since 2008

when my mother lost her mate

and I lost my father.